Another sun-soaked season fades away.

I always have an odd thinking that there is something magical about summer. I can’t really explain it. The heat, the swaying green trees, the warm breeze, the sweat, and the laid back approach of people make these humid-weathered months stand out from other seasons. The activities that you do will always be memorable. The people you share this season with will always stay in your memory. And these memories will never fail to give you some sense of nostalgia. And I bet, years from now you will have a summer that will leave a mark in your heart. Or probably, you already have that summer.

Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced, another sun-soaked season fades away. - STOLEN

It doesn’t matter how young or old you are, but I guess you will agree with me if I say, summer is where the best time of our lives is.

PS
Stolen, a song performed by Dashboard Confessionals. This should be on your playlist this summer.

Click on the smiley below to watch the video on youtube.

2012, you are on top of my head.

Did I tell anyone lately that I am in a serious and committed relationship? Probably, not. I was so engrossed with my own life and daily ‘yada-yada’ that I forgot to mention the lighter side of my not-so-optimistic tunnel vision. I am in a relationship for almost 2 years now, and this blog has marked its second year last January 2012. Yet, I failed to mention my significant other. Now you might question how significant that person is to me. Yikes.

Hey, don’t judge me.

Santan flower, a common type of flora located almost anywhere in the Philippines. Taken during Misa de Gallo at University of Sto. Tomas football field.

The title of this entry does not concur to its content. All I can utter: 2012 is on top of my head. It’s quite heavy, it’s causing an (imaginary) impingement syndrome warranting a neck collar similar to PGMA’s condition. The only thing that does not hurt is her hair and her infamous facial mole.

I just hope our working visa to Middle East will be approved. Soon.

Have a great second quarter to all of you. ^_^

I will be back, and let’s talk about the pressing matter for Filipinos this summer, the famous Magnum ice ream bar!

The Purple Ribbon Campaign

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"The Purple Ribbon Campaign is an advocacy supporting the passage of the Philippine RH Bill (The Responsible Parenthood, Reproductive Health and Population and Development Act of 2011). "

Learn more about the RH Bill by visiting their website: www.rhbill.org

Thank you!

It’s just a pill, but it would mean the future, PASS THE REPRODUCTIVE HEALTH BILL!

I’m just sighting that:

1. Because the Philippine government JUST SIMPLY cannot allot enough budget for the maternal and child care.

2. To lessen the mother and child morbidity and mortality rate. (The infant mortality rate determines the health status of the entire community. Yes, it’s that crucial.)

3. Passing the RH Bill would promote reproductive health awareness not just in urban areas but importantly in rural communities. I think this includes, easy access to condoms, pills, health (yes, sex) education, etc.

I took this photo while serving as a volunteer nurse in a government hospital in Manila.

4. Therefore, reproductive health awareness would create better understanding, break ancient common (ridiculous) beliefs, and hopefully application/ execution of what the people have learned from the healthcare advocates.

5. Reproductive health bill will slow down the population growth. If families could only have children they could provide for; this will later on promote quality life for the future Filipino people. Quality life would mean: better healthcare, better education (increase literacy rate), and better socio-economic status.

6. The arguments are still free-flowing in my head. If only Manny Pacquiao would shut up his mouth and would stop quoting Genesis from the Bible, “Go forth and multiply…” BECAUSE there is a continuation to that quote, “…and fill the earth and SUBDUE it…” Yes, SUBDUE it… meaning to control it.

I am dreaming of a better Philippines. This is one of the keys to that dream. Again, this is not about the pills, or the arguments between this social dilemma. It’s the future. I support RH bill up to the core of my existence. I just simply believe that it is more immoral to have children that you can’t feed, put them in child labor, abandon them in the streets, neglect their healthcare, and raise them with poor education.

This hurts like a fother mucker

Okay.

It’s been months and nothing makes sense out of my head.
All I know, I’ve been pretty emotional lately and I know it’s been affecting my decision making.

I browsed some of my entries. That person is gone.

Re-starting again.

Under construction.

No more heart over head.

Everything will be decided by the gelatinous matter between my ears.

And yes, not knowing what to do hurts like a fother mucker.

I still watch you.

I still watch you from afar,
Even if I already held you close.
Sometimes, the voices talk to me,
And they always tell me to let you go.

I still watch you from afar,
Even if I already felt your heartbeat.
Sometimes, I feel deserted because;
You are different between this distance.

I still watch you from afar,
The stills, the smiles, that hair…
Sometimes, I can tell you love me too,
It shows in your eyes.

I still watch you from afar,
And I know you want this too.
Sometimes though I still wonder how close…
How close did I get into you?

A Repost: The One That Got Away (Mark J. Macapagal, The Manila Times)

In your life, you’ll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special and ones who will always mean something. There’s the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you’re with…and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it’s that person with whom everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person nor flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn’t fall the right way, I suppose.

I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you’re not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn’t matter who you’re with, it just doesn’t work. Small problems become big; inconsequential become deal breakers simply because you’re not ready and it shows. It’s not that you and the person you’re with are no good; it’s just that it’s not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you’re ready. You really are. And when this happens you’ll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it’ll work because you’re ready. It’ll work because it’s the right time and you’ll make it work. And it’ll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you’re finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want and you’ve become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there’s no telling when this day will come. Hopefully, you’re single or be in a long-term relationship, or be married with three kids…it doesn’t matter. All you know is that you have changed. And for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.

You’ll think about them because you’ll wonder, “What if they were here today?” , “What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?” .The one that got away is– the biggest “What if?” you’ll have in your life.

If you’re married, you’ll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you’re mature enough to realize that you’re already with the one you’re with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you’ll think about him/her every so often, but it’s alright. It’s never nice to live with a “might have been,” but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who’s already married. In which case it’s the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you’re old and gray and reminiscing.

But if neither of that is the case, then it’s different. What do you do if it’s not yet too late? Simple –find him or find her. The very existence of a “one that got away” means that you’ll always wonder…what if you got that one? Ask him out to coffee. Ask her out to a movie. It doesn’t matter if you’ve dropped in from out of nowhere. You’d be surprised, you just might be “the one that got away” as well for the person who is your “the one that got away.” You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won’t make a difference. If the timing is finally right, it’ll all just fall into place somehow. It would be a great feeling in the end, to be able to say to someone, “Hey you, you’re the one that almost got away.”

Don't be that one who searches, finds and runs away. Paulo Coelho